Sunday, January 7, 2007;
u know im really confused... well in fact it comes to a point i dunno wat to do... if i call, the other party is juz gona put the fone aside and as i continue talking the person will come back and say oh u not finished yet... then wat am i suppose to do.. when i ask a question means im asking whether i can actually do it or not.. if i cant then it doesnt hurt i will just stick to wat i do every night... and then it becomes my fault.. like as though i do not want to talk to the other party... i try my best to explain but nothing comes to avail as the other party juz says im giving excuses after excuses... and then in the end who loses out.. its me... shouldnt i have asked the question in the first place and keep my mouth shut then i guess nothing will be going wrong.. i guess asking questions is as well the wrong thing to do...wether the person is gona say stuff abt me.. then what will people think of me.. i dont care what people think... all i cared abt was for the other party to be happy...asking the question have failed me as it caused the other party to be upset and of coz pissed. Should i juz shut my mouth and dont say anything.. i dont know.. what is the meaning of importance... in terms of priorty i should say... no matter what i do i still do know who or what comes first.. but then in the end im told the priorty i follow is actually wrong... no matter what happens or wat so ever.. i know who is most important to me in my life... but in the end.. the other party doesnt think so... coz i asked a question that made the other party doubt the importance.. in recent times i have tried to do everything i can to show who is important and in the end.. it hits me back really hard.. as though i havent done enough.. what is enough or is it true that it is never enough.. i dunno... im thoroughly confused but what can i do... i will just end up talking to myself on the fone when i want things to become okay... so what can i really do... i continue to sit here the same way.. thinking... thinking of what....? well the position im in... if only there was something i could do...
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